Today surprised me.

Leading up to it, I have been wrestling with discouragement for multiple reasons:

• All of the content ideas I compiled suddenly weren’t connecting with me the same way.
• Creating aimlessly is not a fun feeling for me. I have been having difficulty finding a direction to anchor to.

Yesterday, I arguably made one of my worst posts yet. And I woke up today feeling bummed about what’s to come. You know what it’s like when you’re hungry and open the fridge, but nothing sounds good to eat.

I, ashamedly, had a bad mental attitude about the process.

I thought all day about where I wanted to take this. And within not having an idea of what to write, I began to think more about “Well, who do I WANT to create FOR?”

What is my why?

A question I have had since the beginning, and a question that I wasn’t in a huge rush to answer. As I knew that this would come naturally with time. And also continue to evolve, everchanging.

After I got home I began writing out specific characteristics of the people I want to attract and create around. And in the process of making this list I began to see that the fictional model I was creating, is me.

Not literally, but I possess all of these characteristics–if I didn’t I wouldn’t see value in them.

And that’s when I realized in a more impactful way:

Successful artists are essentially creating for themselves. Paradoxically this connects with other people.

Create for yourself.

I had a weird day today.

Beginning discouraged. Bagging chicken. Ending with more direction.

Thank you,

Olivia